my list of regrets may seem short but if i put down all the things i wanted to, i think it would all be silly little things that ended up adding up to the way i am now.
my relationship with jed was one major disaster from start to finish. i made a highschool crush into my first love and ultimately made it almost impossible to get over him....
there were soo many problems with our relationship, from the most basic things like his obsession with bodybuilding- that grossed me out, it was practically an eating disorder waiting to happen, to the fact that he and i wanted completely different things in life. i think i may have loved him a bit but i ruined any real chance of a meaningful long term relationship by throwing the whole "i love you" out there wayyyy to soon....
i ruined that relationship from the beginning. it ended within a year and its taken a year and a half and im still getting over it... i need that next amazing "love" to help me move on now, those stupid highschool relationships that meant nothing did nothing to help me move on...
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